Long day-

I have no more energy.. so tired. I stayed up until 2 in the morning about every night this week. I shall start my rant on my day now.

So. School. I had to do a presentation in French today. Luckily, Desiree stole my book from me so I knew absolutely nothing she was talking about. I said my 2 sentences of which I knew, and she finished the rest of the presentation. It felt very wierd just standing there listening to Desiree talk. Can you say awkward? Yeah.. and at the end the teacher had to ask me why I never talk in class... that was just as awkward. Um... I don't know. I used to talk ALL THE TIME. But once I got to high school I grew to be shy, which is extremely odd/annoying, and I hate it. I've gotten to where I don't talk to my parents either. They never listen, so I don't bother. The only thing they do is nag at me and fight with eachother. Although my mom usually starts it. She's one of those people who like to stir up drama.. ugh. I guess I don't really talk to anybody much now, because nobody cares. I mean.. I don't blame them. When I do talk, it's usually to myself when I'm home alone. Or on my blog. But half the things I want to say on here, I can't.

I should be working on my art sketches. But I'm not. I don't care if they're due tomorrow, I do not want to do them right now.

Alex B. Skylar, and Desiree are all dragging me to homecoming. Do I want to go? No, I don't. I'd much rather be ice skating. So after ensemble practice on Friday, Skylar and I are going over to Alex's house to get ready. That's going to be hell. I hate people bothering me when I'm getting ready. So.. this will be interesting. And besides the fact that I don't even want to go makes it 10 times worse.

I wait for Meghan everyday. I wait for her coming and leaving from choir, I wait for her when she goes to her locker... yet, she never waits for me. Apparently Jacob is more important. Which, I'm pretty much used to by now. Gee. She only see's Jacob in choir, between every class, at lunch, at her locker, on the weekends, and at eachothers houses.. I see her at lunch, and she can't even wait for me to get my stuff together. Oh no, she just takes off with Jacob. So I don't even try anymore. I've officially given up. They don't care about anybody else; I'm not important to them anymore.

My parents had life groups tonight at church. It was an adult only group so I sat in the main area and did homework- for 2 freaking hours. But I overheard the group leader, Rosanne. She said "if there is something in your head, that you can't get out, that's God talking to you, telling you to do something." That line is stuck in my head.